{"id":446,"date":"2025-12-03T12:50:47","date_gmt":"2025-12-03T07:50:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/esselar.uz\/?p=446"},"modified":"2025-12-03T15:16:41","modified_gmt":"2025-12-03T10:16:41","slug":"eshik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/esselar.uz\/?p=446","title":{"rendered":"Eshik"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><strong>SARVINOZ YALGASHOVA<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Shoshilib ijara uyga keldim. O\u2018z uyimga, viloyatga ketishim kerak edi. Katta ehtimol bilan hozir kvartirada hech kim yo&#8217;q. Shu xayollar bilan kalitni olib eshikni ochmoqchi edim, u qulflanmagan. Ichkaridan yosh bolaning yig\u2018i ovozi eshitilardi. Birdan qo\u2018rqib ketdim. Kvartirada uy egalari bilan yashaymiz. Uchta yosh bolasi bor: ikki qiz, bir o\u2018g\u2018il. Qo\u2018rqqanimdan beixtiyor eshikni ochib, tez uyga kirdim. Kvartiraning katta xonasida uy egalari yashaydi. Eshik qiya ochiq. Uyga kimdir kirganini sezishdi shekilli, ovoz tindi. Ichkaridan uy egasi, uch bolaning otasi chiqib keldi. Ovozim chiqar-chiqmas salom berdim. Alik ham olmay tumshayib qaragancha eshikni yopishga urindi. Shu onda beixtiyor ichkariga ko\u2018zim tushdi. Katta qizi ko\u2018zlarida yosh bilan sovqotayotgan odamday yelkasini qisib turibdi. Otaning qo\u2018lida esa kamar. Eshik yopildi&#8230; Men esa xayolga tolgancha eshik oldida qoldim.<\/p>\n<p>Eshik yopildi&#8230; Ichkaridan ustozimizning baqirib urishgan ovozi, so\u2018ng kaltak tovushi aralash sinfdoshlarimning kechirimlari eshitildi. Ustoz ularni \u201cbedodliklari\u201d uchun kamar bilan urar ekan. To\u2018g\u2018ri ba\u2019zan ayb o\u2018zlarida bo\u2018lardi, lekin baribir maktab o\u2018quvchilari uchun bu juda qo\u2018rqinchli. Do\u2019pposlash sahnasini qizlar ko\u2018rmasligi uchun eshikni qulflab olarkan. Azbaroyi ruhiyatimizga yomon ta\u2019sir etmasin deya\u2026 eshik yopiladi.<\/p>\n<p>Eshik yopildi&#8230; Chamasi o\u2019n yashar qizcha edim. Xuddi shu dadasidan kaltak yeyayotgan qizcha qatori. Qo\u2018shnimiz mendan ikki yosh kichik qizini ko\u2018chaga chiqarib qo\u2018ydi. \u201cAyajon kechiring, iltimos, boshqa qaytarilmaydi\u201d degancha darvozani urardi. Ba\u2019zan bir on to\u2018xtab, ko\u2019zyoshdan bir-biriga yopishib qolgan uzun kipriklari orasidan qizargan ko\u2018zlari bilan atrofda hech kim yo\u2018qligiga ishonch hosil qilish uchun atrofga tez-tez qarab olardi. Menimcha, kiyimsizligidan andisha qilyapti. Onam qo\u2018limdan tortib uyga olib kirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013Agar sen ham gapimga kirmasang shu ahvolga tushasan. Ko\u2018rib qo\u2018y!<\/p>\n<p>Eshik yopildi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Eshik yopildi&#8230; Bu safar shu eshik ortida o\u2018zim. Onam tinmay katta bo\u2018lsam qanday kelin bo\u2018lishim haqida gapirardi. Nima deyotganini anglamas darajada bee\u2019tibor, asabiy o\u2018tirardim. Har safar shu dashnomlar ostida qolganim uchundir balki. Lekin nima uchun eshiklarni yopib, huvillagan xonada yolg\u2018iz urishishini hech tushunmasdim. Bordi-yu, dadam bu bosimlardan xabar topsa, onamning o\u2019zining boshida kaltak sinishini keyin angladim. Dadam \u2013 balogardonim, hamisha o\u2018qishim, bilim olishim uchun sharoit yaratishga harakat qilgan. Lekin ba\u2019zan ularga og\u2018irlik qilayotganimni his etardim. Xorijda o\u2018qish istagimga ham umidimni so\u2019ndirib, shashtimdan qaytarib qo\u2019ymaslik uchun \u00a0indamaygina bosh irg\u2019ashlarini sezardim. Ammo onamning \u201co\u2018qishni xayolingga ham keltirma!\u201d degan po\u2019pisasiyu, dadamdan yashirincha menga kuyov izlashlari g\u2018ashimga tegardi.<\/p>\n<p>Eshik ortida qolish qiyin. Xoh sakkiz yoshli qizcha bo\u2018ling, xoh o\u2019n sakkiz. Bilmadim yana qancha voqelarni o\u2018z ortida saqlaydi eshik. \u201cQo\u2018rqsa, hurmat qiladi\u201d degan eskicha qarashlarga javobim shuki, hurmatni kuch, urib-so\u2019kish, do\u2019q-po\u2019pisa bilan olish shart emas.<\/p>\n<p>Shunday xayollar bilan eshikni qulflab xonaga kirdim. Yaxshiki oyog\u2019imni bir etikka tiqib bo\u2019lsa \u00a0ham oliygohga kirganim. Oz muddatga shu gaplardan qutuldim. Uyga borsam onam peshvoz chiqadi. Yana o\u2018sha mavzu\u2026<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>SARVINOZ YALGASHOVA Shoshilib ijara uyga keldim. O\u2018z uyimga, viloyatga ketishim kerak edi. Katta ehtimol bilan hozir kvartirada hech kim yo&#8217;q. Shu xayollar bilan kalitni olib eshikni ochmoqchi edim, u qulflanmagan. Ichkaridan yosh bolaning yig\u2018i ovozi eshitilardi. Birdan qo\u2018rqib ketdim. Kvartirada uy egalari bilan yashaymiz. Uchta yosh bolasi bor: ikki qiz, bir o\u2018g\u2018il. 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